Hopeless but hoping

The last few weeks have been a roller coaster through hell but I have finally broken through the Earth's crust and am coasting along my way calmly on Earth.

I've actually had really bad thoughts these past days; thoughts that would allow me to cheat and slowly climb my way up; depressed thoughts that involved me crying in the corner in the foetal position. However, today, I've had really positive ones. I still have hope and I will always have hope. I will never stop trying nor will I ever give up.

I love you three so, so much.

Post HSC Photo Diary

(What I wore to NYE in the city, new haircut for 2013, sticker-bombed my boyfriend's car when Vi and I saw it parking innocently on the side of the road, Andy's 18th birthday, the whore-se and Danica, Santosh's 18th birthday with Santosh dressed as Squidward, The Tunnel Club at the Cross (for the first time) for Kabhi's 18th)

I should bring my camera around with me more often. Most of these are just stolen from Facebook or off my iPhone which explains the dodgy quality. These photos are basically providing you guys with a false perception on what my post HSC is actually like. You may think that all I'm doing is partying and f-ingsu!!!!!! (you're probably not thinking that), but I'm really just sitting at home playing Sims 3.

Experimented with the Create-A-Sim body weight bar and laughed so hard. She shouldn't be wearing a leopard print bikini HAHA

Oh, and check out this song: Avicii vs Nicky Romero - I Could Be The One. The music video is funny and the main character is freaking hilarious but at the same time it also makes you question your existence.

"I feel like I'm trapped in somebody else's master plan: go to school, get a job, get a mortgage. All I'm really doing is dying."

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The year has started off with a bang and there is no way that I will let it sizzle out before 1st January 2014. Which means that the 16th January better give me what I want or else... I'll cry. Joking. (I'm still hoping for the best though)

BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually had the greatest group of people to share my NYE with. My night was almost ruined by some party poopers down at Milsons Point whose attitude may reflect how little they're getting laid (half joking). I know you (the fat man taking up so much space because his body fat needed a place to sit too) may have came across rude fuckers who trampled over all you, but if someone opts to be polite and asks you nicely to let them walk past - which would've taken up barely ANY of your time (since there were still 3 hours before the 12am fireworks) - THEN MOVE. Don't stand in the way of someone celebrating the new year with friends and family. It's a day of celebration. Take that frown and attitude off your face before that's the attitude that you are bringing into 2013.

Some people might say "you don't know what he had been through that night" or "you don't know what people may have done to him" but I personally don't think there is any excuse to be grouchy to someone just because someone else had made them angry. I don't think it's fair to take out your anger on other people. Unless I had been aggressive or rude, his reaction was completely unnecessary.

Him: "No, I'm not letting you through. I know you won't get down there to them."
Me: "And what if I do? What if I do get down there to my friends and family? What would you say then?"
Him:

Yeah, that's right. You stay silent.

NYE 2012 CREW: Susan, Alissa, Alaster (covered with my hand hahehe), Jimmy, Henry

ON A POSITIVE NOTE, I'm actually quite a big fan of New Years resolution, however being a fan doesn't equate to being good at maintaining them. You know those people who joins the gym at the beginning of the year? Gyms for a few weeks and never shows up again? Who can be found playing Sims 3 until the wee hours of the day? Well that's basically my life story (I just wanted to throw in Sims 3 because i am AHHH-DIC-TED)

MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

1. To be more giving.
2. To get fit (bitch).
3. To always wear my retainers.
4. To not give up on things that I set out to do (like my blog, my fitness, Channing Tatum... ha ha, just kidding, J)